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Thursday, 21 August 2008

A NEW SCHOOL YEAR

Well as always, I blog about once every couple of months. But in this case, I think I have a better excuse. I have been working a forty-hour job and teaching about 5 hours in the evening spread throughout the week. So, when I come home I don't even think about reading my email and checking anything, or even turning on my computer. I just sit and do nothing because it's wonderful.
Ok, so enough excuses. What have I been doing this summer you ask? Well like I said, I've been doing SUMMER CAMPS!!!!!! I had fifteen kids to look after and play with, get mad and frustrated with, to create crafts with and to fall in love with. They were awesome and I learned so much from them. They have just been awesome!!!!
I will tell you the one thing that I really have learned is that children are so special. Even though I've been told that I'm special all my life, I've only just realized and begun to really believe it. It just hit me one day while I was doing devotions with my kids. They are so precious and it just overwhelmed me. I said" Kids, do you realize how upset your parents would be if they lost you? Do you know how they would feel to lose something so precious to them?" It really made me realize how much my parents really love me and my three younger sisters. It's overwhelming!!!! And God loves me even more than that. It's unfathomable!!!! But so wonderful to know that God loves me.
So, if there was one thing to learn from these children, it was that "Children really are the most precious gift that God could give to parents." For me the most precious gift that God has given me this summer is to be their leader and to help train them in the way of the Lord. That is an overwhelming gift and such a wonderful blessing.
I love children so much; they are just part of who I am. I can't go a week without being with children. It's hard to even go a day. God has given me a love that I truly cannot explain. It's just there and it keeps growing.
So, there's my lecture of the past summer.
In other news, my mom returns to school in a couple days and I will start teaching again for Community School of the Arts. I'm so excited and can't wait to get back into it. Also, those of you who read this, my birthday in Oct. 7 and I'm planning to have a birthday bash on Oct. 4. I'll send out invites and such to see if we could have a conglomeration of people from my childhood, college years and those I've recently met come and celebrate with me 25 years of living in God's world. It's been hard but it's been the best ever.

Thursday, 29 May 2008

God's Grace

Another random statement, but one I feel deeply;
I love France. It is the country I hope to one day live in fulltime. I don't know if it will be in ministry, but if it is, I hope to be able to use my music to teach children of the love of Jesus Christ. I want to show these children how much God loves them.
We hear ourselves say Christ died for us. I think we hear it too often and it become a meaningless statement. For me, I have been reminded what it would mean to give up my life or lose the life of a dear beloved. It truly is amazing and beyond grasp to understand the love of Christ and why he would go to such lengths to save you and me. We are nothing but filth from which we were made.
What I want to know if why there are those who would question what they believe and why they would think it untrue. What is faith? It is the evidence of things unseen. We can't see Christ but he is there walking beside us. We can't see the wind but can feel it physically just as we can feel Christ holding us spiritually.

POINT BEING:
                        GOD IS SOVERIEGN, OMNIPOTENT, GRACIOUS, LOVING,
                        AND BEYOND FATHOMABLE GRASP SAVE BY FAITH!!!
Currently Watching: Pride and Prejudice - The Special Edition (A&E, 1996)
Mission to Bordeaux, France

Pride and Prejudice is simply the best classic in the world.

Tuesday, 05 February 2008

Marriage is not the cure all for loneliness!!!

Ok, so I just wanted to write and get this down on paper and thought you might be interested to read it.

Here goes...
        So, on Sunday nights at church Dr. Ross has been preaching on marriage and the difficulties and trials and beauties of it all. This past Sunday he talked about being single and the joys you can have as a single man or woman serving Christ fully with your heart with nothing to care about except Jesus.
        Ok, so there's that point of view to be single and then there's the other part, getting married. Being married takes part of you away from God in a sense of having to provide for a family and husband or wife which ever the person is. So, your time is divided. Half of your time you spend caring about the people in your life and you are responsible for and the other part you is devoted to God. The problem though is that you are tied down and you can't go where ever at the drop of a hat, you have a family that you have to consult or husband or wife.
        Ok, so that's the first part on the whole marriage thing. Second, everyone thinks that marriage is about love and sex and all that jazz. Ok, so it is partially but there's more to a relationship than just those things mentioned. You've got to have the commitment to work behind it to give up those little extras and sacrifice willingly for the other person. People think that if they can just have a little bit of romance that their lives will be great and things will go well. Ok, it might work for a little bit but it won't last forever, so here's the next thing.
         Marriage is one of the most difficult decisions you will ever make in your whole life. It's not something to take lightly. Dr. Ross quoted a statement that he likes to tell young engaged couples, " A good marriage is not something you get it's something you have to work for." Marriage is a commitment to take care of that person for rich or for poor, in sickness and in health till death due us part. Ok, so what does that really mean. It means don't get divorced you make a vow and you don't break it. Be what you say you are. Be a woman of your word. Just because you're in an up hill battle that doesn't seem to be ending any time soon doesn't give you the liberty to end the relationship. You've got to give to the relationship.
           So, now I've given my sh peel on the vows and importance of marriage, this is what I want in my marriage in the man that I marry if I marry. I'm not going to look for him though it will be difficult to not look. If someone comes along I don't care about his looks or what he does, those are material things. What I want that will be most important in my marriage is my relationship with God towards my husband. I want to live a Christ-centered life where I work to make my marriage work. Where, in the rough times I can stand by my husband and we can pray and cry together and know that God is in control and that even when we're drowning Christ is there the pick us up. I don't want to find a man based on romance. But don't get my wrong, I do like romance. I love to watch romantic movies and see them all happy at the end but that's not what a relationship is all about. Put Christ first and everything else will fall into place. I want to be able to study the Scriptures and understand them and though I know I won't be able to get it all I want to struggle with the issues in the bible. I want to know what it means to strive to live a holy and godly life. I want to understand what it means to Love the Lord with all your heart, with all your strength and with all your mind.
So, I've said all this in essences to say that a love based relationship is all that the world thinks it is. There's more to a relationship than just the kissing and holding one another.
        Here's something else, people like to get into relationships because they think it will take away the loneliness they feel. They think that if they could just have someone to come home to or love them that the loneliness would go away. It won't!!!! All of this to say that I don't want to look for that future one in my life even though I know that I will try at times. I want to focus on Christ and live for Him and if God sees fit to place a husband and family in my life, then I pray that I would always keep Christ at the center of my life that I might overflow with blessings to my family and those around me.
That's all.

Marriage is not a cure all for loneliness."

Thanks for just listening.